Keep Breathing

Things actually seem better this week~ Exams coming to an end, school gonna end and results didn't seem to let me down. Pri is, i think is drifting away..i realise i have to accept this part of life that is changing! I wish i could help her but sometimes she just prefer to run away then tell me anything..pri i know! you dun have to hide k?

As for him, i actually being bolder! After a week of not seeing him, the moment he step foot to school..i couldn't stop looking at him! Even when he realise that i'm looking and i know i end up looking like a desperate b*tch, i couldn't care less! i just wanna see him! When friends say something, and you know that they just saying to brighten up your day(thanks :]) and you know you are not suppose to believe them cause they are just saying things! but today, i wanna believe them, cause i need a little good news sometime in my life! i dun care eventhough its lies,i wanna believe them!

I guess i should keep breathing! I mean it in a thinking positively way! its helps and life seems better that way:]

Floppy week!

This has been one hell of a week!Exams started this week..so there goes the first flop of the week.Isn't it amazing? you study so hard but in the end you just end up copying from the best student..its like licking crumbs of smartness from her(sorry,pls mind me-a little hasty these few days!)

The second flop of the week,haiz..i waiting and waiting but in the end i just fooling myself! i mean seriously why i just stop myself from liking him so much?? and why can't he just stop sending me ups and downs? i feel like drowing away from the world..i just sometimes will pray that something would happen..but in the end nothing never does! Doesn't God listen to my prayer??

The third flop,combat actually went to India! i know pri doesn't wanna talk bout it..but pri seriously i envy you! i know i repeating myself over and over again..but wat i saying is true..its hurts so much more that you see him and you know he doesn't wanna see you! pri..i know how you are feeling..you just wanna stay lock up in your room just lying on the bed,listening to music and thinking bout life..you dun wanna go anywhere, just school and make faces telling ppl you are alright but you're not! but seriously that's not how you should be..go out forget bout everything and came back someone new!:)

me,myself is being a hypocrite for telling you and not doing it!

Halloween disaster!!

Yesterday Conrad(sis best friend!) organize a Halloween party, i mean a real Halloween party with costumes, scary maze and all! My sis asked me to go and which crazy person would refuse right?? The choices for the costume came to two, a clown and a biker-zombie-babe:) After much thinking(didn't do much thinking anyway,was running out of time!) i decided to be..*ta-da* a biker-zombie-babe:) Mum and sis had fun putting on make-up on me..i the type who will run and hide under my bed when i heard the word 'eye-liner' and you know wat i actually look good(i mean scary-good!) guess its good to have two beautician at home!

Dad drop us at the event place..saw some of my sis friends, they are um..great:P But then Conrad decided to give us all a very very big surprise..the party was cancelled! i repeat "CANCELLED" i was petrified!! it seem the maze caught on fire! its that a sign?? maybe it got someone or 'something' attention? i leave it up to you to decide!

Oh well there always next year:) ok..i need to give out shout-out to some people:-

1) Fran..if you are reading this..just wanted to tell you that i have the song you wanted and i give you once you and i come on9 k?:)
2) Sharan..i will definitely take your offer on the whole magazine thing k? let me know when and where:)
3) Santosh..very good! my sis gave you a little pep-talk right?? next time listen to me k!
4) To all PMR candidate..Good luck and a tip..don't cheat k?

Different Lies, Same Old Truth

Today its the last week where things will remain the same..after this week,everything gonna change..so trying to come this whole week to fully enjoy this last week before 'change' comes. Pri doesn't join my van already..and its so hard cause most of out time spent is mostly before school starts and school ends(she comes very late and goes home very early). Call her today and made plans with her(hopefully it works!) God..i just wish sometimes that decision were never made and make everything upside down!

This morning when pri came to school, we did our routine check for two-doesn't know-guys and just that made me realise that whatever me and pri says bout "oh i got over and all" it really doesn't work! pri i still can tell you can't get over him k? dun be in denial! you can notice from 20 feet away and still tell me what is he doing and how he looks and all..but who am i to say? i just get hiper seeing him comin through the front door and keeps wondering bout him until i see him again the next day! We may say different lies but in the end its still the same truth! we are hooked like crazy!! not to be anything and all..but i dun think i was like this with my last one(yes the one sasi took!)

But still its because i see him giving signs and all! People say that something might happen after PMR, ya right!! Ya, he will be a free cat and me? a sitting duck for not studying for my finals!

xoxo SaBr!na