Seven things i hate about you!

A friend once told me to really get over someone..you must first list all the things you hate bout that person! So here I am listing the seven things i hate bout C1.
Here goes..
1)I hate his favourite sport..badminton(which really sucks!!)
2)I hate how he deals with situations!
3)I hate his friends(well maybe one or two!)
4)I hate how he likes to cheat girls for fun!
5)I hate how he always pick his friends first!
6)I hate his walk!
7)I hate wat he has done to me!

ok..thats that! ah..i feel much better now!
P>S: pri..pls try this..its fun and it somehow works!

i know them!

Its been..wat a week?? but i still think bout him very much! God..today its is his birthday..and i wish i could pick up the phone and dial his num and say Happy Birthday! but i can't..actually i won't! cause to him i just a random girl..and i dun anyone especially him to think that i'm some hussy who sits one corner and wait for him to come.I not giving him that satisfaction!

All i want is for him to have a slight of regret of wat he has done! i not wishing for him to come crawling..begging me to take him back! But i know..it never happen, he, they never will! Oh well life must go on!

How nice if life were like Beyonce new song-if i were a boy! maybe they will finally know wats been going on in our life for once and finally stop being such jerks!:)

Goals!:)

Today..he told me that he never wanted this relantionship at all! Bloody Hell!! then why..gave that key-chain? he said my friends putar-belit cerita! F*ck Him la!! anyway i not gonna let this ruined me! i have new goals in life! and i am GONNA make them come true!!
Goal No.1) lose at least 10 kg
No.2) cut my hair
No.3) Do excellent on my SPM
No.4)Find someone new
No.5) Be more BITCHY!!

i need my sis la..for goal No.5, pri..how i wish u could do this with me! Damn! dun worry, i not gonna let anything stop me or get in my way!

I will be F.I.N.E!

So far..things be good since monday! i mean for him to actually come and give me something small but so meaningful for me! Then..we didn't actually behave like a item..but still in some manner..it was official rite? haiz..but of course things weren't so good! I found out from sasi..that HIMself told her he was playing me! i mean..i could see this happening! but didn't believe it was true! But..in the end,i must think it through rite? and i did, i decided to end it! its better to end before he actually goes through with his plan! of course like always..it hurts! i cried not once but three times! i mean it was a first break up for me!

And the best part..i actually hung back the chain he gave him! i just dun feel like keeping it! he said i being childish! but how do you want me to act? when u own self acting like a jerk! haiz..i o-kay! ;) i must now focus on wats important! but still he was feeling guilty! ha! that was good seeing him like that!!

After listening some songs which really really helps! i'm starting to feel better;) and its not like the end of the world for me! i mean i got my friends, family and myself! so i be fine!

P:S/ pri and ros..i know you are worried! but dun worry i won't slit my wrist!;} tomorrow is your last day rite? lets enjoy it!

love this song!

You know when you are feeling something, and a certain song just speaks to you? well i have found my song! it doesn't just relate to my life but also give me a inspiration for how i should deal with watever that is going on with my life..friends,him and family.

Pri..i think this song will help u like it helped me:] ~keep breathing-ingrid michaelson.

Keep Breathing

Things actually seem better this week~ Exams coming to an end, school gonna end and results didn't seem to let me down. Pri is, i think is drifting away..i realise i have to accept this part of life that is changing! I wish i could help her but sometimes she just prefer to run away then tell me anything..pri i know! you dun have to hide k?

As for him, i actually being bolder! After a week of not seeing him, the moment he step foot to school..i couldn't stop looking at him! Even when he realise that i'm looking and i know i end up looking like a desperate b*tch, i couldn't care less! i just wanna see him! When friends say something, and you know that they just saying to brighten up your day(thanks :]) and you know you are not suppose to believe them cause they are just saying things! but today, i wanna believe them, cause i need a little good news sometime in my life! i dun care eventhough its lies,i wanna believe them!

I guess i should keep breathing! I mean it in a thinking positively way! its helps and life seems better that way:]

Floppy week!

This has been one hell of a week!Exams started this week..so there goes the first flop of the week.Isn't it amazing? you study so hard but in the end you just end up copying from the best student..its like licking crumbs of smartness from her(sorry,pls mind me-a little hasty these few days!)

The second flop of the week,haiz..i waiting and waiting but in the end i just fooling myself! i mean seriously why i just stop myself from liking him so much?? and why can't he just stop sending me ups and downs? i feel like drowing away from the world..i just sometimes will pray that something would happen..but in the end nothing never does! Doesn't God listen to my prayer??

The third flop,combat actually went to India! i know pri doesn't wanna talk bout it..but pri seriously i envy you! i know i repeating myself over and over again..but wat i saying is true..its hurts so much more that you see him and you know he doesn't wanna see you! pri..i know how you are feeling..you just wanna stay lock up in your room just lying on the bed,listening to music and thinking bout life..you dun wanna go anywhere, just school and make faces telling ppl you are alright but you're not! but seriously that's not how you should be..go out forget bout everything and came back someone new!:)

me,myself is being a hypocrite for telling you and not doing it!